Two More Days
Perhaps this is just shouting into the void, but I am so goddamned nervous. Last night, my anxiety made me triple check with Mr. Wolf that he's on board with the timeline we're pursuing. The last thing I want is for him to think I'm only proposing in order to rush him. I'm not. But I can see how someone could think that. I just want to give him that special moment. Why should only the woman have it?
I know he has some kind of plan running, but I have no idea what or when it is. Maybe that's building my nerves? I don't know. I recently found out about some shortly-upcoming bridal expos. After I explained to Mr. Wolf what they are, he seemed interested in checking some out. Luckily where we live is very close to a lot of them. The closest one is the 6th. Which may also be recognized as roughly two weeks from today. Which is kind of soon.
But I think the thing that causes me the most stress is the errant thought he might say no. I know that he's not going to, since I know he has a ring and a plan for me. But mental illness is not logical. I just put so much work into finding all the parts of his present and choosing the ring and learning that song on my ukulele. This is definitely a big time investment. I suppose I can't help but be nervous?
I know he has some kind of plan running, but I have no idea what or when it is. Maybe that's building my nerves? I don't know. I recently found out about some shortly-upcoming bridal expos. After I explained to Mr. Wolf what they are, he seemed interested in checking some out. Luckily where we live is very close to a lot of them. The closest one is the 6th. Which may also be recognized as roughly two weeks from today. Which is kind of soon.
But I think the thing that causes me the most stress is the errant thought he might say no. I know that he's not going to, since I know he has a ring and a plan for me. But mental illness is not logical. I just put so much work into finding all the parts of his present and choosing the ring and learning that song on my ukulele. This is definitely a big time investment. I suppose I can't help but be nervous?
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